It took me 6 months to write this essay— I was nervous about it and wanted to get the words exactly right. This is a comic I wrote for a book I'm working on. If you like this and want to see more, please visit the official website:
I don't see many artists on deviantART that are like you - genuinely good people that honestly care about everyone. Your comics are full of symbolism (the panel of you walking the circle path is sooo good), and I love that so much. May God be pleased with you, man. You do this out of the goodness of your heart and that's all people need from others.
Yeah, I am like this, I admit it. I think highly of myself when I see others not as good as me, then I see someone better, I kneel on my knees and treat them like gods and goddesses. I plead for people to check out the art I tried so hard to work on. It really is how artists are huh, well not all of them, but a really big chunk of them.
Wow. I just want to say that this comic personificates so many artists so well, because it's true and it's something you've been through. So you understand it really well and it shows without doubt. It is done with such a honesty and nice colors. Not everyone would expose their feelings or "weak" feelings this way. Well done
And I just want to say you got yourself another watcher. Because I looked around a little and despite the amount of comments you get, you take all the time needed to respond to each of them. That is some gratitude ^-^ You really are doing things well.
Great question-- I think it's a keen insight you've made discerning that dichotomy.
We all need to define what is good in life so we can pursue it. We need to know what'll make us happy, so we can strive for it. The problem we run into is often this puts us on a see-saw of arrogance and despair. When we perform with excellence and get what we want, we grow proud and have little mercy for other people who haven't made it as far as we have. Conversely, when we don't get what we want, we fall into despair and start believing we'll never be happy because we don't have what it takes.
Not everyone would agree with me on this, but the only object of pursuit I've found that breaks the see-saw and brings you to a place of true humility is Jesus.
When I read the bible, I see I have no reason to despair, because Jesus saved me, and but I also see I have no reason to be arrogant, because I did not save myself. That the son of God died to pay for the bad things I've done holds such profoundness for me. It means I have nothing to brag about, because I see the things I've done are so bad God had to kill his own son for me. But it also means I am totally loved and have nothing to despair about, because God made the sacrifice anyway, in spite of how bad I am.
Obviously, I struggle to believe these things all the time, or else I wouldn't have drawn the comic above-- but I am convinced these things are true whether I believe them or not.
I'd be open to any thoughts you have on that of course-- thanks for your question and your time!
A very thought provoking comic. I'm always trying to improve my art because I want to eventually be able to portray the exact same image I see in my head into reality. For me it's more of a love to create that drives me over simply being good at it, but I can see how this could happen to any artist. Very well done.
I don't often stop to comment on everything I read, but this is just so simply gorgeous that I felt I had to. I love the elegant, flowing words, and I think they really resonate with every artist who has stepped into the same situation. I find myself re-evaluating my own identity as a result of this!
The muted colours are a beautiful choice as well, and serve to unify the whole story, and your style is so graceful to view. For six month's work, I think you've created something that will speak to the rest of us for a very long time.
*starts reading this* *Gets halfway* "OK this Better have gotten a daily deviation" *finishes, sees DD* *very happy* Nice work!! I love this. It was well written and the illustrations in the comic were amazing!
Can I just say this is really worthwhile? I mean, I know it's silly and may not even sound much like a compliment but it is. I really needed to read this. And I think there are a lot of other who need(ed) it too. So thanks for making it.
I feel kind of bad now.. I ended up walking down that path.. I was commonly the shadow of everything.. but then things took a turn.. I started looking at my work, and began to loathe it. I felt that no one liked it, and that, in turn, made me hate it. I couldn't stand to look at it.. and one day, I removed it all from DeviantArt. Deleted everything I worked on. Everything I've written. Everything I spent hours on for people to look at for maybe seventeen seconds at most. I hated my hands, for the hellish torture of an image they made every time I tried. The only remaining piece of work that I've made would be my avatar that you see to the left of this text. I hate even that one, but others wanted at least something that I had made, and I prefer not to have a depressed looking avatar, like most of my work is, so it turned out to be that.
Now I just sit here, in front of my laptop, feeling inspiration beyond anything else, but then remembering the monstrosities that my hands made every time I felt that lust to create, and I end up remaining in my corner on my bed.
For those of you who read this, thank you. Not much read what I write anymore, so I always appreciate knowing that someone stopped to read what I had to say.
I've read the comic you linked and it make me feel better . I've never been proud of my art but when I read this comic I understood something ! We learn of our fail , it's a very important lesson that I'm not gonna forget! When I draw without looking at my fault I feel more free and my drawings are more true ! I hope one day I'll draw better , thank you for all your comics .
No no.. thank you for actually reading my comment. I doubted that really you of all would read and reply to it. You're artwork is amazing. The words that you use with it is equally as amazing. I specifically chose to reply to this one because of that it matched my situation for the most part. I'll open your link in a new tab, and most likely reply on that one as well, but for this reply, I just need to say thank you for reading my first comment, replying to it, and reading this one as well. Most nearly hate my words now because I have some emotion in it that seemingly hurts them, when I only write how I feel on the subject.. I don't like blabbering on and on about myself, pouring my emotions out. I used to do that with passages and poems, but I've learned better. Whenever I look at them now, I utterly hate them. I very rarely use the word hate, but I hate them.
Here I go again, jabbering on.. I apologize. I need to learn to keep my words under control and not letting myself go on like that.. I feel like I shouldn't delete them, though, because I have that feeling that they should be read, even though every letter that I type only shows more of what I apparently feel... which I just can't stand to see..
I bottle everything up because.. If everyone saw the real me.. then I'd be even farther cast away than I currently am...
It sounds like you are dealing with life things that go a deeper than your art. I wish I could help you but I can't--
Not everyone agrees with me on these things, but I do believe there is a God out there who sees the real you and doesn't even flinch-- more than that, he loves you deeply-- so deep that he'd die for you.
I don't know if that applies to you, but I wish you well. Stay in touch!
If this is your first time making art in a while, I'd recommend keeping it really simple and manageable-- don't aim for mastery, just aim for completion! If you finish it, that is your moment of success! The quality of the work shouldn't matter at this point. Don't let what the work looks like say anything about your value as a person or who you are. Just the act of finishing will be your victory!
Some tips for keeping it low pressure:
Draw something you're interested in, something your like. Keep it simple: black and white, one media. Set a timer for 20 minutes and try to finish in that time. If you don't make it that's fine, just set the timer for another 20 minutes-- but try to keep it short! The goal is to get in and out! The goal is not to make gorgeous art, it's just to make art! Listen to music-- try to have fun!
But no pressure! I'm not going to judge you one way or another whatever you decide to do!
I actually spend usually 4 hours on every picture, and I have drawn withing the past two months. I can only really draw in greyscale, so that won't be much problem anyway. Thanks for the tips! I should have it done relatively soon!